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December 17th, 2003 - Wednesday Another sleepless night For some reason today, George was singing that "do you really want to hurt me?" song by Boy George. I haven't got a clue as to why he was singing it, but then he left and next thing I knew I was washing dishes and singing the same damn song. I came very close to killing him. Luckily I managed to replace it with some Christmas songs, otherwise I would have been arrested.    Hayley went to sleep easily at 8:30 tonight. I cleaned up the post-bath bathroom, scooped the litter box, tidied up the kitchen and picked up the stuff in the living room. Then I opened a bottle of red wine and just as I headed for the living room china cabinet to get a wine glass she started shrieking and wailing through the monitor. I went in and tried to nurse her back down but it was a no go. She was wide awake and refusing to sleep. I am sick to death of fighting to get her to go to sleep and I'm sick of the night weaning not working any more. It worked fine for a bit and I know that it's the teething that is making her wake up so often and she just needs the comfort of being nursed at 3 am. I can't do this any more, I've been up for two to three hours straight almost every night since early November. I told George that I can't do it any more because it's wearing me down and making me useless. I'm not playing with her enough during the day and my patience is way too thin because I'm just exhausted and that's not fair to Hayley. I'm going to go back to feeding her in the night if she needs it and once the four teeth from hell finally come in and she's back to her normal self again, I can try the night weaning process again since I was able to see how well it really can work. It also doesn't help that she's been sneezing and coughing all day. I don't think it's anything serious because she doesn't have a fever and she's not super cranky but it looks like she may be coming down with a cold. That doesn't make her sleep well either. In the meantime, she's up and sitting on the floor here in the living room with her sweater draped over her head (I have no idea, I don't ask questions any more) and she's flipping through some of her books. I figure it's easier at this point to let her wind down a bit and try again later at the first sign of fussiness. Since I'm pretty fried I think I'll answer some questions. These ones are from Heidi. Are you teaching Hayley French as well as English? Does she watch any French television or programs? At this point I'm really not. I know that it's easier to learn languages the younger you are, but at this point I just want her interacting in one language. If either George or I were French, then she probably would be learning both at once, but for now we'll stick with English. The only time she sees French television is if I'm trying to watch something and she changes the channel on me! I know you don't drive. Are you able to get around to where you need to go via bus or foot? Where I live, I'd be completely stuck without a car. Yes and no. There are a few places that I go that I can get to by foot. I go to the convenience store, the pharmacy, and the dollar store, all within a five-minute walk from here. I can also walk to the library in about 15 minutes. If I want groceries, I really need to go with George. If I needed an emergency ingredient I could technically get to a grocery store in about 20 minutes, but I could never do a full grocery run. I did that once several years ago and nearly died by the time I lugged everything home. I know you would like to have another child. When do you think you'd like to start trying again? What is the age difference between you and your sister? What age difference would you like to have between your children? Ah hahahaha! I often say I'm never having another child until this one learns to sleep through the night and lets me get some rest first. In theory though, I would like to think about a second one after Hayley is 2 or 3 years old. There are five years between Amanda and me and although we get along now, we had pretty crazy fights growing up and I wonder if being closer in age would let Hayley and her sibling be closer earlier. I still want some sleep first! That's all I've got for tonight. I'll save the other questions for other entries, but you can still ask me some if you'd like. I have to see if this crazy child will think about sleeping. << - Journal index - >>
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Reading: The DaVinci Code, Dan Brown.
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